Wednesday, December 31, 2008

2008: The year that was.

Before the clock strikes the mark of the start of another new year, it's time to write about highlights of this year (my first time ever to do so)

*"Thanks pal" the second time around - this year, it was not just my crappy phone that got stolen, even my wallet that I bought all the way from Italy was stolen as well, which contained my old 1st year ID, my driver's license, my Alumni card, my membership card at Baguio County Club, and around a thousand bucks! It sucks though, but it became a learning experience for me, learning to be more careful with my stuff.

*The Battle must go on - as my mother has been strong in battling cancer for more than a year and counting, the more I was inspired to do more and work harder. I just simply salute my mother for being strong in the midsts of operations, chemotherapy sessions, and radiation sessions. My mom is my absolute lifetime idol in all of my things I do for the best.

*Camera spending spree - for this year, my allowance was used 75% of the time for Camera gear. And what have I got? A Sigma telephoto lens, an extra battery for my camera, a bigger memory card, a Sigma flash that was eventually replaced with a Canon flash, a rare Mark 1 50mm, a lens hood for it, a remote that I found from my lola's stuff, a replacement eyepiece because I destroyed the original one, a battery grip, and new sets of AA rechargeable batteries and chargers as well. I've probably spent roughly around 30k for all of these gear. It just proves to me that I can save up for things I really want

*Other stuff bought at my own money - aside from Camera gears, I got myself a new phone (after mine got stolen), a new set of Skullcandy Headphones (after the demise of my Sennheisers), and a new pair of "funky" shoes, of which I thank Jan, Acor, and Nichael for giving me advice while I was choosing which shoes will I buy.

*Surviving the Guidon experience - going almost two years as a full-time News Staffer and a part-time Photo staffer in the Guidon, despite my past hatred for writing (IN ENGLISH), I was able to prove to myself that I can change my past assumptions on certain things. Through this process of adaptation, I have learned a lot, got to know more people, made more friends, and enhanced my writing skills (which I thought that there is no hope for me to improve in that aspect). Overall, I never will regret my stay in this prestigious organization.

*Second chance was significant - although I swore that I will never ever come to like and fall for her again two years ago, a unexpected encounter with her during school made me give another chance to actually fall for her again. After all, she was far kind and nice than expected, not to mention that she became prettier now that I met her in college. Also, doing kind acts like lending her one of my old books and returning her notebook (thanks to my photofriend, Tata Yap) made me felt more fulfilled in returning the kindness to her.

*Here we go with legality - as I turned 18 this year, a lot was expected with me, and that includes responsibilities. I do have a hard time coping up with this, but at the least I am trying to become more responsible as I grow up.

*Be aware with the country - As a political science major, studying these various political theories, studying methods of research, and learning more about the corruption in the country, now I have showed more care than ever with what is happening to the country, with what is going on with the senate and congress, with what assortments of injustice happens to our country, among a few. After all, it is still up to us the youth who could be able to make a difference to our country.

*The ups and downs of academic life - although I seem to be doing normal in terms of academic life, college life has made me learn that it has its ups and downs as well, and that we shouldn't cry over spilled milk; instead, just move on and do better. Despite getting catastrophic tests and amazing achievements during my stay in college, the best way to go is to always work harder and improve on it. There's no limit on improving after all. High points to be considered are my first orals, my first "long" paper, my first take on my first set of majors, and my ability to manage an exemption. Low points are 16/100s, a couple of zero quizzes, surprise long tests, crammed-out projects and presentations, and the pile-loads of  reading shock therapy.

*The music in the making - in terms of the significant music I have been listening to for the year 2008, I would give this to David Arculeta, Chris Brown, Rihanna, Britney Spears, Usher, Mae, Kylie Minogue, Madonna, Paramore, and Simple Plan for the international scene, and to Rico Blanco, Pupil, Cambio, Pedicab and the Eraserheads for the local scene. For this year also, I learned to appreciate the dance/trance/electronica genre, thanks to the likes of Kaskade, Telepopmusik, Daft Punk, Alex Kid, and Armin Van Buuren.

*Of flirts, jokes, eyecandies, etc. - this year saw the redefiniton of crush into the word "eye candy" as I came to realize that the word crush can mean a lot. Also, the ideas of flirting became a new thing to me, having instances of a good mix of humorous, serious, offensive, and mocking ways of flirting with the opposite sex.

*Unity, unity, unity  - with this year, I learned to be more bonded with high school friends and with college blockmates, which makes me get to relate with them much better, and hence avoiding instances of being out-of-place with their conversations. Also, those inumans were something for me as it has become for me a means of relaxing after bouts of stress from college life.

And that's how I describe 2008. All the best for the year 2009.




Monday, December 29, 2008

Back to reality, and new gears update

So our favorite (and I suppose every Atenean PolSci major's Favorite) professor, RR RaƱeses has just posted our thesis statements for our first oral exams for Contemporary Political Theory next year. Oh my God. The break's so fast, I've just come to realize that I have some work to do! So assessing myself . . . 

Finished duties are:
-Article for BlueBlood
-Theo Biblical Readings
-PoS53 Readings
-One interview down for PoS53 (and another one to go)
-Letter for Psych project (emailed what I did to my groupmates; still yet have set a definite date)

Other duties to do:
-Guidon articles (speaking of which, I don't have any to do for now . . . but I'm eager to write)
-Re-read PoS53 readings (to further avoid a catastrophic test)
-Review for PoS61 Orals (since it is more on modern theorists, I expect to do well here since 1) This will be my second orals, 2) I made much decent notes this time around)
-PoS61 presentation (which I haven't followed up yet) 
-One more interview for PoS53 (so that I get to submit something by start of school)

Overall, not quite bad ;) I've got some time to finish the other stuff while I am in Baguio, of which I will be going there just the day before the boom of the New Year. And yes, I will be celebrating New Year in Baguio Country Club again (just like last year).

So yeah . . . just one week more and my mind is set back to school work; not to mention another round of insanity with not just acads alone, but the EB Race, work, and other stuff as well.

As for new gears, after getting my Christmas money, I decided to use around 25% of it for bank savings while the 75% went to gear shopping. What did I get this time? A new flash upgrade and a lens hood for my 50mm. 

First for the new flash, I traded in my old Sigma EF500DG Super flash and added some cash for a Canon 430EX II (Actually, I was suppose to get the 430EX months ago but they ran out of stock, which made me end up with the Sigma. Months later, I realized that the Sigma sucks in the sense that it is very inconsistent with my shoots, wasting batteries and the shutter life of my SLR. In the end, I sold it at a losing price . . . meaning cheaper than when I bought it brand new, and settled for the 430EX II). Although I wasted some money by not getting the 430EX in the first place months ago, I felt that it was good that I got the later version since it had some added features (like the metal mount with quick release), but still if I had bought the 430EX months ago and not the Sigma, I could have raised enough money to buy that used 50mm 1.4 that Sir Ogie (my photographic adviser and the person whom I dealt with the most on my photography gear with, wherein I bought my Sigma Tele, my 50mm mark 1, the two flashguns, and the lens hood, plus extra batteries and filters from his store)

Second for the lens hood, finding the correct lens hood for my 50mm mark 1 was hard since 1) This version of the lens has been out of production for more than a decade, 2) Very few stores sell lens hoods, and 3) The lens hood made for this antiquated lens has been sort of out of production as well. So yes, it was a pain finding the appropriate one, even if the ES-62 version (for the 50mm mark II) would do well for this lens. For some reason, I prefer to have a hood that mounts on the lens, and not on the filter threads (like the ES-62). Good thing Sir Ogie had an ET-65 III (which is used on the 85mm 1.8, my supposedly dream lens) at hand, although slightly used. It did fit well on the mark 1, and despite being a hood for a tele lens, I felt it was just right for my 50mm because I placed in consideration the crop factor of digital SLRs (since my 400D has a 1.6 crop factor, this would mean that my 50mm would bloat up into 80mm, which is in the telephoto range) so I bought it.

Also had my 50mm mark 1 checked for any trace of fungus, and fortunately, there is none; it's just some dirt inside. If I have the time I shall have it cleaned up (and yes, I do not have any intentions of selling it considering its rarity these days). But for now, it still gives me fine photos.

Officially, my gear is all Canon (save for the Tele lens, of which I don't have any intentions of upgrading it . . . unless some angel up there would send me a 70-200 2.8L) and yes, I am fine with my gear, which is set to take fantastic photos, in various categories of photography.

As for my laptop, I am not going to get a new one since I heard some news about Apple coming up with a new OS named Snow Leopard. Looks like that is what I am going to save up for instead :D *Calling my friends using Macs who are thinking of getting the new OS :D

As for love life . . . well I feel this sense of "loving" to Ms. Senior girl than to Ms. Freshie girl :| :| I know it is bad (refer to flirting is not allowed post to know more why), but maybe the reason why I like Ms. Senior girl than Ms. Freshie girl is the fact that I think Ms. Senior girl is more mature and would take good care more of me than Ms. Freshie girl (I'm speaking in terms of Psychology), and plus the fact that I get to bond more with Ms. Senior Girl than Ms. Freshie girl. Yes, my heart is physically and psychologically torn between the two of them (and I'm hoping that my heart will NOT be emotionally torn between the two of them, or else I will end up insane)

Got my stuff packed up, and I'm off to Baguio on the 31st.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

The world has gone insane. For real.

Bambee De La Paz's original post here.

For one thing, all I can say is "FUCK YOU Mr. Pangandaman and your son! You fucking bastards! Why the fuck would you beat up a defenseless father and a minor with your goons, guns, and power!?!?! just to show that you are in power!?!? Just to show who you are!?!?!?"

Frankly speaking, Mr. DAR secretary and Mr. Mayor of Masiu City, Lanao Del Sur, you obviously FAILED MISERABLY AS A HUMAN BEING.

Mga putangina kayo. Haven't you got any morals or values!?!?! Are you Uncivilized Savages, much worse than even the wildest animals in the mountains. You motherfuckers. Parang gusto ninyo magpatayan na lang tayo para makita sino ang malakas. It's like you are bragging to the world that you are a motherfucking goddamn DAR secretary who can overpower anyone. THINK AGAIN, BASTARDS.

Being a Political Science myself, I am very ashamed of the large piece of bullshit our current Philippine politics are. Puro palakasan, puro kurakot, puro sikat, puro sa sarili. AND WORSE, you bastards are even setting a bad example to millions of Filipino Children out there, whether they are educated or not. With your dirty deeds, you are indeed teaching these children to live a live ala Grand Theft Auto, where fame, stealing, killing, and mocking other people is a way of life. Instead of being model public servants who serve for the people, you instead serve for your fucking self to save your asses from the shit and crap you commit to every Filipino.




And to the two of you motherfuckers, you deserve to die IN HELL  for your immoral acts. Mga puta kayo. Mga walang pinag-aralan. Daig pa ang aso at pusa sa kalye.




You there (reading this blog): Should we all start a revolt against these immoral, ruthless, uncivilized, savage bastards? I guess we need to do so, quickly. 

Friday, December 26, 2008

Caution

Danger is lurking out ahead of my paths.

2008 FlashBack

From Karl "The Diva" Fajardo

Where did you begin 2008?
At the balcony of Baguio Country Club, taking snapshots of fireworks using my newly purchased (then) DSLR

What was your status by Valentine's day of 2008?
Valentine's day? NO it's Single Awareness Day! =))

Did you have to go to the hospital?
No

Did you have any encounters with the police?
No

What did you purchase over $500?
Probably anything involving my camera gear.

Did you know anybody who got married?
My uncle.

Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yes. 

What sporting events did you attend?
Ateneo-La Salle Basketball Finals. BOTH game 1 and 2.

What concerts/shows did you go to?
Wala.

Where do you live now?
Sta. Mesa.

Describe your birthday.
Nothing really special. 

What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did?
Saying something that is not expected (like the "revelation(s)" that happened to me :)) )

Any new additions to your family?
Wala.

What was your best month?
October. Enough said.

Who was your best drinking buddy?
HBoys!

Made new friends?
Yes.

Any regrets?
A couple. But move on, alright? ;)

What do you want to change in 2009?
Time management skills.

Overall, how would you rate this year?
Probably an 8/10

Have any life changes in 2008?
Yes.

Get a new job?
Do part-time jobs count?

How old did you turn this year?
18.

Did anything embarrassing?
A LOT.

Get married or divorced?
Too young for that sorry.

Be honest - did you watch American Idol?
Nope

Start a new hobby?
Nope.

Are you happy to see 2008 go?
Not quite.

Drank Starbucks in 2008?
Of course.

Been naughty or nice?
Both. :))

What are you wishing for in 2009?
Good grades, a position, and someone.

Done something you've regretted?
YES.

Lost someone?
Well almost.

Cut class?
Nope. Too good for such :))

Was involved in something you'll never forget?
YES.

Cooked a gross meal?
I don't cook

Lost something important to you?
A couple of stuff.

Got a gift you adore?
None. Yet.

Tripped over a coffee table?
Nope.

Dyed your hair?
Not my style.

Came close to losing your life?
Nope.

Went to a party?
Yup.

Read a great book?
For PolSci subjects yes; for leisure reading no.

2008: FRIENDS AND ENEMIES

Did you meet any new friends this year?
Yes. Lots of them.

Did you dislike anyone?
Yup.

Did you grow apart from anyone?
Sort of. It's their fault anyway.

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
Well yeah. Some people end up saying things at my back.

2008: YOUR BIRTHDAY

Did you have a cake?
Yes.

Did you get any presents?
Of course.

2008: ALL ABOUT YOU

Did you change at all this year?
In one way or another, yes.

Did you change your style?
Uhm . . . maybe?

Were you in school?
Almost all the time.

Did you have a job?
Org jobs and part-time stuff.

Did you drive?
Yes. To school only and back.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

Did you go on any vacations?
Yes.

Would you change anything about yourself now?
Maybe.

2008: WRAP UP

Was 2008 a good year?
Somehow yes, somehow no. But generally speaking 2008 was just as good as 2007 for me.

Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
I do hope so. :)

Monday, December 22, 2008

Flirting is not allowed.

Well the whole Guidon crush part was meant to be just a joke I just made, but apparently, 1) I took it too seriously, or 2) Jan took it too seriously, but nonetheless, we sort of accept it already, so no harm done after all. :)

During the News dinner with Acor (who was a news editor and staffer before being EIC when I entered Guidon), Nichael (who was a news staffer before becoming Training and Development manager), and Jan (who was my co-staffer in News and currently the Beyond Loyola Editor), we all shared our stories, varying from things like Guidon in the past, involving the famous three who started Katipunan magazine (which one of them apparently was my SA teacher), to professors, to love life, and all sorts of stories.

For some reason that I don't know how it came to context, the joke about Jan being my Guidon Crush came about, and boy I was laughing when it was our topic. The only thing is that I've said some things that I would classify under "flirting" (and probably was caused by the remnants of alcohol I had during the HBoys Christmas party the night before), and thankfully, Jan wasn't offended but instead laughed it off (well we all know what happens if a person does not like such flirtatious acts, and of course I do not want to experience that).

After dinner in Cravings, they accompanied me to Shoe Salon, where I decided to buy myself a new pair of shoes. And yes, the pair I chose was Jan's (and Acor's and Nichael's) choice; so yes I made a good choice. Then as we met with Ojie (another News staffer who was also a Training and Development staffer as well, just like Sasha now) and talked about showbiz-y topics. The night was fun indeed.

Then upon leaving, Acor made one last joke, telling me to hug Jan. But I refused, since it can jeopardize my aspirations for News editor (and just for you know Jan handles the News and Beyond Loyola). But if not for that, I'd gladly give her a hug (like how I hugged Ayee, my former News Editor, during the second T2Day). But why not? Quoting from Ayee, there's a thing called being professional, and it is unfair for other aspirants as well if I flirt with one of the Senior Editors (since they are the one checking our requirements). The words love and professional can never go together.

Maybe there should be a new rule in the next EB race that states "Flirting with co-Aspirants and Senior Editors is not allowed". Just kidding. 


Merry Christmas in 2 days! I wonder what's at stake for me :D

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Christmas break

Xmas break at last! And it will be my third party later night with former News Staffers of the Guidon :) (the first two ones were last friday with Guidon friends and yesterday with high school friends)

Well so far I've received a couple of "immaterial" presents already (and material presents as well) so the break is going well, but I do need to pray a lot for my grandmother, who is experiencing pains from her tooth surgery (if I said it right) and of course for my mom for her to live longer (yes my mother IS a fighter who has overcome the evilness of Cancer for a year and counting and still living her life to the fullest). The more the days pass by, the more I feel happy that my mom and grandmother are there, still fighting strong no matter what, and that makes me happy enough for me.

And speaking of happy crushes, apparently one of them went to the party last friday and it was funny that she sat beside me (for some reason) while I was having my dinner. Yes cheesy much for me especially to see her cute face (although not that emo-ish this time hahaha . . . . but nonetheless she is still cute). Then she bonded with her roommates (wherein one of them is my co-staffer :D) and yes it was a happy night, even though if I lost my dignity with that dance presentation :D

Then yesterday with high school friends, all I can say is that boys will be boys. Lots of naughty stuff, mischief, sleaziness, and some wasted moments occurred last night. Thank God I didn't attempt to drink that Satan's drink (which is Bacardi . . . 70% alcohol no joke). Instead, I tried Tequila Rose, the Perfume Gin, A shot of Black Label, and some Bailey's and Gin mixes just to make sure I would not end up drunk.

And of course it doesn't mean that it is the break I could just bum all the way; I have work to do of course. In my list:
-Blue Blood write-up on the Juniors Swimming team (Doing part-time work is no joke)
-Guidon Article(s) (A journalist needs to be working almost all the time)
-Psych project (with professional Athletes)
-PoS53 readings (and this time I'll study hell hard)
-PoS53 interviews (and hoping to get senators to interview iwth)
-PoS61 presentation (Yep, let's talk about Totalitarianism)
-Theo Bible readings (Because I love Theo)
-Sci10 bonus project (which I have to work it out with KC, Joe, and Reema)
-And that's what's on top of my mind as of now

And for some recreational stuff, I want to shoot some more photos and I wish to get new gear for my SLR (hoping for a 430ex II or a 24-85mm 3.5-4.5 Lens or a 85mm 1.8 Lens or a new battery pack since the generic one I bought seems to be draining a bit too fast). Also, I want to write more about various topics this Christmas break (and hopefully fill up my blog here)

So far I'm having a relaxing time at home, with the cold weather and all. Advanced Merry Christmas to everyone! :)

Friday, December 19, 2008

This Christmas Season . . .

Get a copy of The GUIDON's DECEMBER issue!
 
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This month in The GUIDON:

NEWS: Calatagan battle reaches Ateneo
Over 100 farmers arrive in Manila to fight for their lost land

SPORTS: Eagles shot down in nat'l college tilt
Read about the Blue Eagles' stint in the Philippine Collegiate Championship 

FEATURES: A cyber virtual digital life
The internet is all over us

INQUIRY: Katipunan's young breadwinners
Some kids stay in the streets to survive

BEYOND LOYOLA: Stock market crash
How world economies are holding up


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Thursday, December 18, 2008

Revelation

Time to show what I actually can do and what I actually did . . . tomorrow.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Moving on . . .

Okay, enough of all the ranting and the depression.

Christmas is coming soon anyway, and I guess I should start saying sorry to those who I have offended and forgive those who have offended me

And I guess that I still have a chance to make up for a catastrophic Longtest in PoS53. I'm praying hard that I will not fail this subject, and hoping for a C+/B grade even if it may sem impossible. Aguas said that nothing's impossible if it has been  done before. Of course some people were able to survive no matter what. So yeah, I should work hard and beat the odds, and beat the status quo.

And I guess I should not assume that my EBR Requirements is a total fail. Like what Jed Gregorio, our current Features Editor in the Guidon said, quality is better than quality. I hope I will still survive the EBR, considering there is still a second batch of requirements and the panels to worry about. The main point is that I made it through the first batch, even if it is incomplete.

And I guess I need some inspiration to get going. I saw ms. Notebook yesterday, and we said hi to each other with a smile, which somewhat encouraged me to study harder for the Spanish Long test. As for the Spanish long test, I did around the average / above average level (which means I would probably get a good C+/B for it, hopefully)

And I guess I should move on as well. Yesterday was the Concert of the foreign languages, which was jampacked with people from various foreign languages like Spanish, German, Japanese, Chinese, Portuguese, French, Italian, and even Bahasa (aka the Indonesian Language). During the Concert, I saw one of my eye candies (who is with her bestfriend who I am annoyed at after hearing that she's saying bad things at my back) and my ex-crush (who happens to be ms. English girl who now enjoys herself with her equally friendly boyfriend). Although both cases involve bits of angst, heartbreaks, and the like, the point here is simply moving on and not worrying about it anymore. What happened has happened already. Concentrate not on the past but on the present for the good of the future.

I hope for something immaterial this christmas. A present that is not material based that will surely make me happy and hope for the better of the future through concentrating with working hard for the present. 

*Still listening to that MIT lecture on globalization for my Sci10 LT tomorrow*

Sometimes . . .

Sometimes we win
Sometimes we lose
Sometimes we get lucky
Sometimes we are not
Sometimes you know you'll make it
Sometimes you know you wouldn't
Sometimes you're definitely sure
Sometimes you doubt yourself





But we always know what are our limits.





I think I have found my limit already. *sigh* 
I'm sensing the end of the race here already.
But I hope not.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

A bad way to introduce Christmas this year

Three days to go, and this day started VERY terrible. My morning started with a fever and colds, and I battled my sickness all the way until my last class in the afternoon, and unfortunately I wasn't that well that I was practically sleeping during my PoS53 and Psy101 classes, with LYJ calling my attention during PoS53 (although she understood that I was not feeling well and sick so that's much better to hear). Although I got my last feasible requirement today, with Czar Medina finishing my letter today. As for the non-feasible requirements for the EBR, I decided NOT to finish it anyway, so at least I'm 90% done with my requirements. And yes, quality over quality does matter I guess.

And the clincher for today? My ultimate epic fail PoS53 longtest. Why ultimate Epic Fail? Because it is so low, that 1) I guess I am the lowest scorer in class, 2) My score is barely 1/4 of the highest possible score (yes, THAT low), 3) I have no hopes of making it to the Dean's List this semester, and 4) my Epic Fail grade endangers me of not passing PoS53 this semester. Yes, how a longtest has fantastically change my view academically speaking with a blast. 

And yes, that depressed me a lot.

Although this is just the first one, I really really hope that I can catch up with my Epic fail tests SOON.

And adding more injury to my state, I am particularly pissed as some people. I really hate people who 1) Tells negative / positive things about me without personally knowing me enough, and 2) people who accuse me of things without having the correct facts! 

Seriously, if you have any form of angst on me, SAY IT IN FRONT OF ME! Don't just share your impressions on me with my other friends. Seriously, doing it that way is just a sign that you (I refer to a couple of people) are too scared or too weak to face me and tell me things you hate about me. I hate this, seriously.

And as for people who accuse me without getting their facts straight, DON'T DEPEND ON SECOND HAND INFO! It doesn't mean you hear stories from me with other people that it is true automatically. That's why gossips aren't 100% true after all! And please, listen to my side and stop assuming that I'm lying. I just hate it that way. 

How I wish things change right before Christmas.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

The (hell) week before Christmas

Time to finish all remaining agenda this week before I can savor the spirit of Christmas.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Of various matters

*Playing on my iTunes: Armin Van Buuren music*

So the 'break is coming near, and I've just realized that I somewhat was able to accomplish a couple of things.

First, let's deal with my Editorial Board Race (EBR) requirements. So far, except for the Banner-worthy story, I am basically finished with the requirements (I'll interview Fr. Nebres and get my letter from Czar Medina on Monday to make the requirements all done and good to go). Although I may have somewhat finished them, I feel not satisfied by the very fact that I wasn't able to accomplish everything. Since I will not be able to do the Banner story as it is already impossible to accomplish, I guess my 1st bout with the EBR is not bad, but at the same time not that good either. I feel bad that I couldn't even complete it within the 18 day period. This tell me two thing: I am not really working enough or I have a really lousy time management. If asked what grade should I deserve for this, I'd say that I deserve to get a C.

Second, let's deal with academic life. So far, just like my first semester this year, I've had a really lousy start for this second semester. Failing 3 (or four) consecutive Theology Quizzes, barely making it with Contemporary Political Theory orals, barely passing my Psych Long test, Failing my Qualitative research long exam, I've been having a hard time readjusting myself again (save for a Psych paper, a couple of Think Pieces for Contemporary Political Theory Class, and my recent quiz on Qualitative research). I've been doing really lousy, that I even have a hard time setting things straight with group work. I just hope that with all of these misery that I'd do well in my upcoming quizzes in Theology 121 and in my long tests in both Spanish and Sci10 this coming week. In fact, I've got a lot of academic work to catch up for the low grades. And I pray that I get a good grasp of things by next week.

Third, let's deal with typical stress. For the month of December, even my weekends are consumed for various reasons like parties, debuts, NSTP, and the like, giving me lesser time to study and do my requirements in the process. As a result, I resort to the thing called cramming, and it is the only way I could save my butt from failing real bad. At the same time, I feel tired, given the fact that my body clock is sort of distorted already (I sleep at 12mn-1am and wake up 530am, drive to school, take a nap after parking, then go to class or study, etc. etc., which makes me force to sleep less and I am guessing that I have insomnia already), that I could not get a good sleep (not until the break starts up). So yeah, I am really tired by now, but I am still fighting to the death by now.

Fourth, let's deal with expenses. For the second semester, I've spent quite a bit in a span of a month, of which consists of a new accessory for my iPod (the Radio Remote with a pair of iPod earphones), a new set of Headphones (a SkullCandy for the first time), a new lens (a Canon 50mm 1.8 Mark 1 that is in its vintage but good condition), piles of photocopied readings, binding expenses, and a couple of events to pay for. Yes, I'm running short of money by now (the last time I checked my savings, I have around 2k at hand, plus around 1.5k from my mom which I haven't touched since I'll probably use that to buy gifts to my family this Christmas), and I should start saving seriously given factors like the financial crisis affecting our economy and hence, prices of commodities becoming more expensive.

Fifth, lets deal with social norms and deviance. For one thing, I seem to be hating the main newspapers for being too much focused on a boxer who won some fight with a big-named boxer wherein there are other things that they should let the people know more than posting all about Pacquiao like almost everyday (although I am happy that Pacquiao won, I still believe that there are stuff other than his win that the people should really know). In another aspect, I am pissed at the government as well since they are too focused on giving Pacquiao a grand welcome home while leaving the poor farmers outside their gates, not saying a single word on serving justice for their cause, a result of selfish capitalists desiring to take even the land that the farmers have worked hard for it. The government would lavishly spend at the arrival of Pacquiao and not a single dime on the protest of the farmers. No offense to anyone, but I think the government is a big inconsiderate idiot and more of a moron for not choosing their priorities well. Like c'mon, Pacquiao has received enough recognition already; now do your jobs as lawmakers to give proper justice to the farmers! Even a high school student would be more concerned on the welfare of the farmers rather than on Pacquiao. 

Sixth, let's deal with love. On this aspect, I try my very best to not really care about it (not that I do not like to love, but for the mere fact that I barely have time for it), but I can't avoid the instances of spotting my favorite eye candies (of which as of now there are 5 of them in my list), and at the same time, being happy to see my true love at least once a week. And I've got something funny to share; for the past few weeks I have noticed that every time I try to blog (via here, in my Multiply, or in Plurk) that I wish to see her again, there is always a 100% chance that I do see her the next day. Funny and weird much? I know. Probably I have an angel at my back listening to me, and on whatever is on my mind, and makes an effort to fulfill that wish. The most recent one of that instance was yesterday, wherein I was with my block mates on our way to Matteo to talk about our Psych paper, then while on the way, I unconsciously didn't notice her smiling at me but after a few milliseconds, I saw that pretty, bright, cute, and perky smile on her face, and I responded the same way as well. After that, I felt like I was dreaming, only to find out that I was not in a dream but in reality. I know it is funny, but I was wondering something: If I wish to see her and I see her the next day, would that be the same if I wish this time to tell her that I love her, that I hid this secret for years, and that I like to be her boyfriend? I know it may sound really crazy and insane, but if it does happen I do not know what to say. Whether it gets fulfilled or not, the fact that I see her and the fact that she greets me and smiles at me is an affirmation that I am happy to see her that way, that nothing has changed for the last 5 years after all. When will the true test of love hit me then?

It's a long entry here, and yes, I am blogging here from now on (although there will be instances that I'll use Multiply), and for everyday happenings, there's Plurk.

And I wonder when will I get to shoot one amazing photo. . . . how I wish that a spark of creativity would inspire me to shoot amazing photos one of these days. . .

And yes, no matter how injured I may be (in physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional aspects), I am still willing to fight, to fight until the end.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Power Struggle

Christmas Break is coming real soon, and by this time I should be happy.

BUT NO.

EB Race requirements + PoS53 interviews and quiz + LTs in Sci10 and Spanish + Psych concept paper = Pre-Christmas Break hell.

Oh Lord help me. Although I did well in my recently concluded Psych LT and 1st Psych Paper, I seem to be failing badly and miserably with PoS53 and its requirements like quizzes (plus the fact that I slept a while ago during that class. FAIL.)

And to think I've got some parties and seminars to add to my list of agendas before Christmas. Oh Lord please help me.

And to think I seem to be not doing well with my article-writing for the School paper. I feel like I'm losing that aura. Please Lord guide me on this as well. 

And as of now, I'm broke. Again. After spending 1k for a new pair of Headphones (a SkullCandy Recruit headphones to be specific) before Bettina's debut last Sunday. Oh yeah, Bettina's debut surely rocked big time! Bonding with fellow HBoys and SHS friends, it was a blast. I got to know new people during the event, and I've got a new Eye Candy to add to my list, which therefore is case number 5:
Sophomore, MeCo major, short, mestiza, rocker chic, has THE body thanks to her abdomen-exposing attire that night, soft spoken, a friend of a fellow HBoy, and is a singer.

Also, I've finally reached nirvana in my Plurk Account last Monday. Quoting from Favian Pua, "buti pa ang Plurk, may Nirvana". How I wish I reach a state of Nirvana with her.

That's all for now. Wishing everybody (and myself as well) good luck.

Random thought: breaking the trend

I've just realized something now.

If I do be successful in my aspirations as a News editor (which is well, only 1% odds of it happening), i'd be breaking A LOT of trends with the News Staff :))

But before I can dream of aspiring, I should get my act going and write my stories properly! 'Coz I'm losing the aura damn. How I wish I could regain it LIKE ASAP / SOON.

*Oh about the requirements . . . if ever you are going to ask about my progress, i'd better keep it a secret . . . FOR NOW (Since I sense that I'll not be able to complete them entirely)

And I wish to see her again. Wala lang. But wait. Quizzes pala. Long tests pala. Concept paper pala. Interviews pala. Requirements pala. CHRISTMAS PARTY PA.

Great. My mind's acting random now. Must so something productive.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Something to think of.

Damn. Time flies hell fast. 

I just remembered how I am this frustrated person who feels that he can't do anything seriously and execute it properly, and here I am, doing something he least expects doing, and actually does it with unexpected results.

Seriously. 

Who in the hell would expect a person who hated writing to write ALL (or maybe most) of the time?

And who would expect a person who dreads about his sucky performance in terms of critical thinking, with those crazy "dead" people and their philosophical thoughts?

And who would expect that despite assuming that things are over, that there is always a second chance to make up for it?

And who would expect that a introvert can suddenly transform into an extrovert, or vice versa?

And lastly, who would expect someone to be running for a position he'd never expect, even in his wildest dreams, that it can actually come?


Hell yeah. 

Ray Aguas, my Theology Professor, was right. If it happened already before, then it is not impossible for it to happen again. Anything can change, even if it may seem to be impossible.





 Besides, it's all up to YOU.




On a side note: Sometimes things get a bit funny AND serious at the same time. I've seem to notice these days that every time I make a immaterial wish, it does come true most of the time. As for the material wishes . . . well of course it would not come true in an instant (kaya nga material wish eh; it involves money most of the time, and money these days is hard to earn)




*Dammit. I should be transcribing by now since the article is due tomorrow.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Press [ |> ] Play.

The GUIDON of ADMU and
The LaSallian of DLSU

 
proudly present
PRESS PLAY
An Intercollegiate Competition and Advanced Journalism Workshop 

 
The Competition has six (6) categories:
  • Photojournalism
  • Editorial Cartoon
  • Opinion
  • Explanatory Journalism
  • Creative Non-Fiction
  • News Feature
Submit your entries to pressplay0809@gmail.com by January 3, 2009. An application of PhP50 per entry must be paid to your school's publication.
For the specific mechanics of each category, please CLICK HERE.
 
WINNERS WILL RECEIVE THE FOLLOWING CASH PRIZES:
1st Place -  Php5,000
2nd Place-  Php3,000
3rd Place -  Php1,000

Internships from October Eighty Publications also await selected winners!
 
 
The Advanced Journalism Workshop will be on January 17, 2009 at the Ateneo de Manila University. It will feature the following topics and speakers:
  • Morning 1 (9 am to 1030 am) - Simultaneous sessions: Opinion Writing and Photojournalism
  • Morning 2 (1030 am to 12 nn) - Simultaneous sessions: Investigative Journalism and Feature Writing
  • Afternoon (1 pm to 230 pm) - Simultaneous sessions:  News Writing and Lay-out and Cartooning
You may also text MM Tan at 09178035522 or Gela Velasco at 09052301437.